Charlie's Blog

I often wonder why I write this, I'm speaking of the day but not speaking about me in the day. So, let me try I guess. -- I enjoy getting up early, but it takes a bit of effort. That effort is rewarded by a search the first rays of sunlight visible between the gutter's downpipe. Still, that's what city life is all about. Longing for something that you don't have, or maybe that's just what we do in general. Work started off early, I feel I'm in the rat race already, either cha

I've become complacent in my duties, in my responsibilities, in myself. I don't feel the responsibility to be happy, atleast right now and atleast this morning so far. What's been on my mind are 2 things, primarily my relationship issues and work. I'm unable to let go, i believe it's called a 'trauma bond'. That or being co-dependant of some sort. I'm co-dependant on or trauma bonded to C. I'm not in a relationship, I'm in a 'roommate-ship'. What I find myself wanting is to b

I enjoy the early morning, though energy levels start dipping late morning. While shopping today, I purposed to get 'back on track' to my state before prioritising getting a 'woman' in my life. I initially did attempt to get myself in a better position for myself, I think this reason may have mutated into one to serve & prioritize another. I have alot of learning to do, about myself. This house we live in, the office I work in - it's stuffy, it's stagnant. I use to have a hou